Shannon (shockwave) wrote,

Oh, LJ, how I miss you...

I still like Livejournal because, unlike Facebook, it's easier to be more honest about life events and happenings in general. So here's what's been happening:

For the past year to year and a half, I've been having a majorly growing anxiety problem. It's one of those things where I thought it wasn't that bad and I thought I could handle it. It wasn't until the beginning of this year where I started having physical symptoms to it as well as the mental/emotional. It took me a while to actually figure out and admit that things had gotten back enough to get treatment for these issues.

About a month ago I started actively looking for treatment and the experiences I had going through this proved to be quite the stressful beast. First off, I found out that my insurance doesn't cover the treatment I need. Well then, next step, looking for a place that does payment on a sliding scale based on income. Many phone calls led to the realization that most places either were not accepting new patients or never called back. I tried the EAP at work, and the place they referred me to never called back. It's like, here I am, I want to get better, but no one is helping me and I'm just frustrated. Eventually I went back to the place I went to eight years ago for depression issues, and that's what I should have done in the first place because they got me in as soon as possible. So now I'm back at the SUNY training center for doctorate students, and I'm HAPPY to be there and that the nightmare of trying to find someone to listen is OVER. Plus the person I was paired up with is AWESOME.

Other than dealing with major anxiety problems over the summer, it's been a pretty uneventful season. I didn't really do much. I watched a lot of movies and read a lot. I went to a couple of parties and local events. Went camping a couple of times and went back to the shore. Did some walking with friends and enjoyed the weather. Reconnected with some old friends, strengthened ties with new ones, and learned how to talk about my anxiety with people without having that sinking feeling that I'm bothering other people. Not burying feelings inside.

I'm glad it's starting to feel like fall. I've started on the pumpkin recipes and on the great horror movie watch of 2015. Finally made it to the Scare-A-Con at Turning Stone yesterday, and to say that was a great experience is an understatement. I always have so many new experiences and stories every time I attend a con, although I'm still intimidated by meeting some of my heroes...I'm still in shock that I met Joe Bob Briggs after being a fan for nearly 20 years. I don't know what I'm gonna do if I go to Rock and Shock and meet George Romero. O_O

So there ya have it. It would be nice if one day, if Livejournal made a come-back. Here's hoping.
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